Jun
22
2006
this is a repost from one of my first entries because i’ve been asked twice in a span of 3 days how one can tell if it’s love..
LOVE ..is a fluid intangible experience. It could be a noun or a verb an act or a choice. But when you decide on something, you have to act on it. Love is not to be simplified as an emotion you label when you try to understand the physiological reactions that go along with it. You decide that what you think you feel is indeed love. Yet, despite being highly cognitive in nature, it is awfully irrational. You dont choose to love for reasons you are certain of, or even otherwise. When asked why you love, can you really give the specifics? If you lose the reason, would you cease to love?
It is intangible and yet it is sensual — you feel it affecting all of your senses. But despite this sensuality, you cant actually quantify it, making it immeasurable. Therefore, you cannot tell how much or how little you love. In the same manner that it is immeasurable, it might as well be incomparable. You do not love two different people or two different things similarly. But it doesnt mean that one is greater than the other either.
When you love, it is always a new experience. You will never love the same way twice. So make the most out of it. No matter how difficult and painful, should you choose to love, stick to it. If you believe you love and decide to do so, keep it despite having no clear reason — because love transcends rational emotion. It does not cease despite losing the feeling and all its reasons. After all, God is love.
Jun
17
2006
How does one begin something that is about to end? And that deep feeling of sadness for feelings left unsaid, how does one go about breaking the silence?
It takes a huge amount of courage and strength to finally admit that the feelings you have for one person could make or break you. And it takes a bigger amount of esteem and humility to say it out loud and direct it to the person involved.
Assumptions are never to be taken seriously. No one can really tell what’s real because it is relative. But to have faith in another person and taking everything as it is because of this, is not something that happens everyday. Faith is a virtue, just like patience. There shouldn’t be any room for doubts that lead to fear and immobility.
There is no perfect time for the end, nor a perfect time for a beginning. We all go around in circles — constantly rotating and revolving. So whatever we have now, we should cherish. But we should likewise prepare that this is not the end of it: everything comes and goes so be prepared to give back whatever comes your way and set it free.
Jun
13
2006
Oh how I love you!
Now the whole world knows it too.
I just don’t know if you do..
But all this is true.
Jun
09
2006
I have always reasoned that love’s a choice
It is not merely a fleeting fancy,
That defies a thousand and one reasons
And goes beyond a surge of emotions.
Perhaps this is why I can’t understand
The love you’re telling me you have for me
Knowing very well your heart’s not free
And the situation’s we could never be.
What is left to say, what is more to do
Knowing you love me and I love you, too?
If love’s a choice and it comes for free
It must be true that it wil set us free
But why are we hurting, why this pain?
Must I always be left waiting in vain?
Jun
03
2006
"When the heart weeps for what it has lost, the spirit laughs for what it has found." — Sufi Aphorism
Time heals most wounds, so they say.
But you never really get over the pain of a loss
And just try to move on:
Taking everything in stride on a daily basis,
Accepting the fact that you will never
Completely understand when, how or why
Things had to happen.
And yet, thankful that despite the loss,
Life goes on.
And delight in the realization that
God does not leave us empty.
That it was necessary to lose the one thing
We thought we couldn’t live without
To gain the very thing that will make life
Worth living.
