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This Easter, I have come to terms with my logic and lack of emotional responses (or seemingly malnourished emotional expression) — I fear the pain of losing.  Perhaps this is why I had been betting on my rational judgment with high stakes.  I never liked competitions, I did not risk much on anything and I did not give my all, so to speak, in relationships (as if I had a lot!). But then, who doesn’t?

Losing is not just failing. It also includes losing something you have..or at times..those you hope you had but never really gotten even close to having.

But with the hope of Christ’s resurrection and eventual ascension, what more do I have to lose?  Salvation is free and who am I to decline? I’d rather risk it all than end up losing without a fight. And now that I have my eyes set on this one thing I so desire to have..there’s no doubt that failure is not an option.