whatever

Sometimes I try to muffle a sigh –

     which breaks the strained silence

     between us; and

     readily creates murmurs

     in my stubborn heart.

This fleeting fancy of nostalgia

     never ceases to amaze me.

     How with just a breath

     my seemingly perfect world

     is shattered.

Unmindful of your diffidence,

     I gasp for air..

     wondering what could have been,

     as I try to run

     from despondency and desolation.

Despite the time and distance

     not even the nonchalant stance

     diffuses this tension between us.

     As I desperately conceal

     this much that I feel.

The truth is oftentimes baffling, unsettling and surreal.

Leaving traces of despair as time stands still.

Reality isn’t always what it seems to be

Your perceptions become blinded by what what you want to see.

And like most people, you try to find a place to hide

From the reeling events and feelings that do not subside.

But there is no escaping what is for everyone to see

That you are no longer the person you used to be.

Oh! The allegory of pain and misery!

Time and fate connived in conspiracy..

You thought (s)he was your world, your whole reality,

Only to wake up  one day to see..that after all,

It was never meant to be.